Going Back To The Womb
Its about going back to the “state of mind” you once knew
Thoughts are described to be like people walking on the street, passing by you. As these people walk by, they whisper things to you to grab your attention.
Suddenly, you become interested in a person that is passing by you, because you are curious to know what they’re whispering to you. You decide to stop and have a conversation with the person, you engage into a deep conversation. Then you start to learn about the person, exchange a phone number or email address and eventually you create some kind of bond with the person. Suddenly, as days go by, this person starts to call and email you a lot, so much that you find it strange. Suddenly, this person gets so comfortable with you, that he starts to ask you for some money and then you end up giving some money to this person. Then this person decides to slowly move into your house and sleep on your bed. Then this person starts to eat everything you have in your refrigerator. Then this person starts to run up your phone bill, your electricity bill, basically this person becomes a complete nightmare and starts to invade all your space.
Well, that is the same way with thoughts that pass by you. You can stop and acknowledge the thought, have a conversation with it, try to make sense out of it, give it a label, play with the idea, feel the emotion of it, get its sensations, and then eventually you end up agreeing with it. That thought will waste your energy, take away your happiness and peace. And then slowly it will manifest itself into an action and speech, that is when you know it has made itself at home in your mind. This is what happen; you did not reject the thought, you did not resist the thought, instead you fell for the lie once more. You allowed the thought work its way into your heart. This is how it works; a thought first hits your mind, then it hits your heart and then it manifests into an action, and then you feel suffering. Therefore, when thoughts pass by you, like thoughts of prejudgment, lust, pride, greed, anger, hate, jealously, fear, inadequacy, anxiety, impatiences etc.. whatever it is, recognize its not your True Self thinking, its actually your false self, spewing some garbage, some ignorant idea for you to believe it. You need to ignore it, resist it, do not agree with it and just say, “Oh its just delusion again” and just see it pass by.
The thought is like a pebble that hits the water, it creates a ripple, that spreads very far, but eventually it just fades away.
Thoughts are like empty puffs of clouds passing by. Thoughts are created by these three things, by things you hear, by things you see or by things you remember whether it be past, present or future events.
I like to also look at thoughts like bubbles from soda. Thoughts come up like the bubbles from the carbonated water. When the bubble makes it to the top of the surface of the soda, it just pops and you can see the fizz, or you can even hear it fizzing. Well thoughts are just like that, you see the bubbles coming up and fizzing, making noise, but you just have to sit there and notice it but without giving it thought, because eventually while you sit there the fizzing will stop and the bubbles will stop coming up and the soda becomes flat. Well of course soda needs to be out side of its bottle, uncovered, for a matter of days, for it to become completely flat without any bubbles or fizz. It is the same with meditation, it can take minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, for you to learn how to train your mind, to quiet down your mind and make it completely flat, calm and smooth. Training your mind is a process. Some people can achieve it quickly, some people can achieve it at a slower pace. The point is that you do not look at it in a time table or a process. This is not a forceful technique, its a natural process. Its about going back to the “state of mind” you once knew when you were in the womb.
When you are in meditation you are quieting the mind, you are entering solitude, its like you are going back to the place where you were a fetus, into your mothers womb. This was the place where you first started life, the place where you had no thought, no doubt, no ideas, no concepts, no delusion, just complete peace. It was like you were in deep meditation, in complete enlightenment, it was nirvana, it was heaven.
Here is another analogy. You are a lotus flower growing on top of mud. Even through this ugly waste, where no one would like to lie on, this is where you grow out of, to become a beautiful lotus flower. The mud is your false self, your ego, mara, which is filled with disgusting, dirty thoughts. These thoughts cannot leave you, because you are intertwine with these thoughts. You are growing on top of these thoughts, it is inside of the mud but its not alive, its just empty. These thoughts hope to take form, but it can only take form if you allow it. So this is how it works…when a thought pops up, like, ” I hate this person,” and then you say within, “Yes, I hate this person,” you are basically agreeing with this lie that the false self is telling you. You are literally shaking hands and agreeing with the thought. So by agreeing with it, the thought takes form, it becomes like a seed that will plant itself into the mud. When this seed starts to grow, it grows into a wild weed who’s sole purpose is to grow, choke and kill your lotus flower. Impure thoughts of greed, pride, lust, jealousy, fear, hatred etc.. is thoughts from the false self, it will try to choke out your beautiful True Nature, your beautiful lotus flower. Control and quiet down your mind, direct your mind to stillness, do not believe the false self, the ego. Do accept these seeds of weed into your soil. Learn what is your True Nature, and cultivate your True attributes.
In the Old Testament, in Genesis 3:22, And the LORD God said, “The man has now become like one of us, knowing good and evil. He must not be allowed to reach out his hand and take also from the tree of life and eat, and live forever.”
We have these two sides in us, its just like Dr. Jekel and Mr. Hyde. You can be the most holiest priest, pastor, monk, nun, pope, yogi etc.. but you will still have these thoughts visit you, you will still have mara visit you, you will still have the devil visit you, what ever you want to call it, these good and evil thoughts are inside of everybody’s mind. But its up to you to put a conscious effort to put a stop to it, to control it, to dominate it with the Dharma, or if you are a Christian or Muslim, dominate it with the Word of God.
If you read that verse completely, it said “…He must not be allowed to reach out his hand and take also from the tree of life and eat, and live forever,” this means, as human beings now we have to work to awaken our True Self. Once we passed our childhood, we entered adulthood and gradually our innocence was gone. So now we need to reach out our hand to the “tree of life, and eat the new fruit,” which is the Dharma, the scared spiritual teachings to find the Way back to our Original Source so that we can live forever free from attachment, free from suffering. And once we know the Truth, it will set us free. Once we get to know our True Self we will be set free. That is why Jesus said you must be born again, its like going back to your original state of mind, that means pure, innocent, clean heart, clean mind, empty from all desire. This means going back to the way we were when we lived in the womb. Your natural self, your True Self. If we were computers it means we need to reboot.
The Truth is here, it has been expressed through many spiritual teachers from history, but you have to go and find it and then realize it. You need to meditate to get there because that is the vehicle to your inner self, your True Self. You need to sacrifice and give up all worldly desires, give up selfishness. Its not easy to control the mind, its not easy to be enlighten, its not easy to follow the Eightfold Path, its not easy to carry the cross, but its attainable, when you are serious, its attainable when you make a honest serious vow, and do this again and again everyday, until you let out your last breath here on earth.
It is well worth it because, by doing this, you obtain your True Self, then you will feel what you once felt when you were a baby. You will feel what Jesus, Buddha, Gandhi, Mother Theresa, Papji etc.. felt. They discovered their True Self. Going back to that special place, going back to the womb.
I hope this was helpful to you as it was for me. Lets go back to that special place and visit it again and again everyday and take it with us everywhere we go. Peace and be well.
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